THE BEAUTIFUL DANGER OF SEX MAGICK
I am not sure if he had his fingers inside of me or if they were still 2 feet away from my body, holding the echo of my heartbeat in his hands. It doesn't really matter either way....because in this moment, everything is womb.
My body knows this language better than any word my mouth could ever form.....the lightning rod of dark pleasure and surrender opening the deepest through-line of my body: from root to belly, encircling heart, opening throat, and emerging as hot panting breath in the mouth of this wanting creature who lives inside of me.
My body arching, feet and hands flexing hard to release the pulsating energy. The only words spoken: "Gillian, this is an activation of allure" he explains, as my pelvis rises in the air to meet hand...or force of unseen energy....I am still not quite sure what was "real".
I feel so much in my body....sweetness, an experience of opening and widening to *take from life*....electricity, azure in tonality, is moving through the opened channels of my body as I wrap myself in silk and in song.
This energy 'activation' is potent, alive, and not yet calibrated in me. In the 3 days following this session, going to the gym has become a bit of a nightmare. The same men I see several times a week and share the deadlifting mat and the squat rack with, are suddenly feeding, devouring me with their sweaty glances and hungry eyes.
Yesterday at lunch, my client who holds my largest monthly retainer package to date, placed his hand on my shoulder, pulling me towards his mouth. I hold impeccable boundaries with my clients and graciously but firmly returned to my own space. However, not before his power-addiction and arrogance felt the sharp edge of my sword of discernment, and he calmly pushed his chair back and walked out of the restaurant, leaving his food still warm upon the plate. He hasn't returned my call (which is the only and final call I will make to him) nor do I know if this is reparable with a man who lives as deeply inside power-addiction as this particular client....the darkest of my kings.
Be careful if, like me, sex magick is a game you choose to play. Energy is the only force in the universe that is REAL.
If your alchemist is potent and gifted and you know how to let life inside your body, it may just thrust you out of the shadows and into the darkness.